Paranoid?? A few sessions ago with my T, she asked me: "Do you think everyone is out to get you?". It kinda took me aback. My first reaction was no, but then I thought maybe.

I am so very hypervigilant that I cannot stop "fighting my war". While my "war" doesn't stem from a combat situation it is still a war. My T says: "You need to put your swords away, take off your battle armor, and stop fighting" it's hampering your progress in therapy. Easier said than done; I need to keep myself safe!!!

The depression makes me very numb; I want to be left alone. I don't want to talk to anyone, I don't want anyone talking to me. I want to disappear into the woodwork.

I think my family (I have no friends) merely tolerates my existence.

Not sure if this helps-maybe so you know your feeling are the same as some one else's??? IDK