seriously.. i do. T says if i say i have no power over this, then i don't have power over it... but i am stressing over this every day now. i have had only one day out of almost two weeks where i didn't throw up. i eat some snacks during the day and do ok, then i try to eat a meal.. that's when trouble strikes. i've attempted to stay with just snacks, and some days that works, some days i just get really hungry.

i have decided that eating less is a lot better than the alternative for now... i need to not be putting my body through that every day. And i need to stop thinking about how i have failed every day.

i don't know how to set a goal around this... one that is attainable. i mean, throwing up is a black and white thing, you do or you don't. i'm not winning.