well my brother and i grew up with a clearly insane man for a father... now he is in jail for attempted murder on me among other things... so is my mother
do i think i am like him? sometimes its what i fear that i will become like him... when i think more clearly i know thats not true. you are not your dad you are your own person...
and reaching out for help unlike your dad.
that alone already makes a huge difference in my opinion