Gotta confess, I didn't read the whole post, Hun. Stopped when I read "maybe I should have lied." Nope! And stop beating yourself up for it. You did what you thought best; you were HONEST. That's a virtue so be proud of yourself, ok? Pat yourself on the back GENTLY instead of beating yourself up, ok?

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