I don't feel very strong.. I cry everyday for him. I have a wonderful T that has guided me through all of this. My son started out seeing this T when he was 16. He's been in and out of rehab and I've done everything I possible could do to help him. I've done lots of enabling. It's time for him to face the consequences of his actions so he can learn and grow from his choices. I just pray that God will keep him safe from himself.

My T asked me yesterday "how much time have you spent trying to take care of him and taking care of yourself?" I couldn't give him an answer because I haven't been taking care of myself at all. In therapy we haven't been able to work on me until I'm not bogged down with him. Yesterday I told him lets wrap up the co dependency today, T goes on vacaction for 2 weeks and when he returns it's going to be about me. (I hope). I told him there's nothing else he can teach me about it. I know what I have to do. It hurts. The hardest part is letting go. Let go and let God. Easier said than done.

I went to a few Al-ANON meetings and bought a book called Hope for Today. It's a daily devotional. July 27 the thought for the day Standing with my arms extended and turning in a full circle gives me a visual marker of the extent of my responsiblitiy. It it doens't come into my space, I leave it alone.

"Today I will remember that I have choices, and so does the alcoholic, I will make the best choices I can and allow others in my life to do the same without interference"

Courage to Change page 5

Check out the subject co dependency I wrote asking about web sites. Mouse suggested a website called soberrecovery. I thought it was good.

I'll pray for your sister. Help her get to meetings. Love her and hug her no matter what she does. Addicts have underlying problems. Once the drugs wear off, they start to feel again. They used the drugs inthe first place to not feel. Hopefully she has a T she likes.

Feel free to ask me anything you'd like. I've been there.