Maybe it's because I've been rejected and abandoned so many times. It always happens, even on this site. I just want to be loved and maybe when anybody starts to show me any kind of love, I don't feel I can trust it, I'm waiting for it to be snatched away from me, as it inevitably always is. Oh, and I'm not saying at all that I'm blameless whatsoever because I know that i'm not. And it's not about the other person either, it's about me. Something others rarely understand so they take it personally, when in fact, there is no reason for them to do so. Maybe I don't feel worthy of anybody's love. Why would I when I lose it as fast as I get it.