thanks for your notes on this. At least I know I'm not alone.

Another part of it is when I am talking to people, it's like they don't even hear me. Especially if we're 2 or 3 people and I say something, the conversation goes on like I didn't even open my mouth. Sometimes I wonder whether I said it or just thought I said something...try again, same reaction.

That's another part of what makes me think this is not just paranoia. If people ignore that fact that you've actually said something to them, there must be more than paranoia.

My voice is soft, so i try saying things louder to get people to respond. Then they look at me like I'm crazy for talking so loudly. ...lol, then they go on with what they were saying.

If I miss a word and ask what was said, people don't respond. I ask a second time. Same thing. A third time, louder. Ignore me.

I'm starting to get a complex of all of this. You see why I think I'm unliked?