I think we all get to the stage of being fed up with being "us"

I know how you feel. I dont like me right now. Heck i dont know if I have EVER loved me. I try to. then it seems like when somebody else gets upset because of me, i take it personally. as if I caused the dismay. and sometimes i actually may HAVE caused the issue, but I cant take it personally always. (but you know us.....we do right?)

I hear you on the emotional aspect. I cant control one iota of my emotions. as of today i am a trainwreck. we have to keep trying. there WILL be good days. we just need to keep it together enough to be able to enjoy one. we deserve no less right?

One day, one moment, one second. One time to smile genuinly and love deeply. I know you dont know me well but we are all family or friends here. I consider this site my safehaven. here we are safe and in control

Deep breaths.....any better?

Colleen