I am semi-reluctant to meds because that's just how I was raised. However, in the dark times, I feel like they would be able to pull me out, cause I know I can't. I have also been looking into psychoanalysis - specifically Lacanian. I don't know, but I do know I need to do something. My parents just think that I will snap out of it, but I know that it has gone beyond just snapping out of it now because it's out of my control.