Thank you for your messages. It makes me feel better

No I'm not on on-going treatment since I can't go on it without putting a really big strain on our financial, so on-going treatment would be something that comes in a few years time. However I am on meds for some of my symptoms, which only to be taken at certain conditions, and what I'm going through now isn't one of them. I looked for support group in my area but couldn't find any. My partner did say though, that if I am going to any support group or treatment then he'd come with.

I tried talking to him sometimes when I'm having a good day, but most times we'd end up in an argument, to him these odd things I do can be eliminated simply by having a strong will... I really do WISH it was that simple! Lately, I just didn't want to try talking to him anymore, because I don't think he even want to try to get to know it.

At the moment I asked one of my best friends to come and stay with me while he's away so I seriously don't go insane and maybe I'll go stay somewhere else where I can be out of my own habit and environment for a bit but not long enough to create a new routine. That's the best I can do for now.