((((((((((((darkangel)))))))))))))) All you've said here, it sounds like you've got a good reason to be depressed. Missing a son would be hard on anyone. Have you talked to your doctor about this at all?

The thing about depression is that it can happen for any reason. It can be situational (something bad happens) or it can have something to do with your brain chemistry.

I'm glad you're here and posting.