((((KT, Earthmama)))))))

yeah =) thanks. She is such the nicest lady, the dr. I never really know what I am doing there - she's like part dr, chiropractor, therapist, stress manager.... she started with the usual "how are you" and i tried to shrug out of that one. But she just stayed silent each time i said something so that i expanded on each thing. I told her my t was out of town and how hard that is... and she asked if i needed to be seeing someone else during this time. I mean... ok, how cool is that? that she would care or suggest something that's not even her field... I know they all work together in this same clinic - it each time astounds me how they WORK together... you know? They're all inter-related. So it was easy to show Benedict and explain that he lives in T's office and how she sent him home with me to keep me company.
Thinking back, I know the hands were lightly stroking Benedict's fur when the session started, and then at some point they went numb and i could not feel the fur at all. I think they stopped moving. And i think that was then the visual cue for the dr. to see that i was dissociating and is when she asked if talking would help me stay present. Wow - Benedict has two jobs =)