You don't have to be sorry for asking for support.

If this happened to me, and no matter how tactfully phrased by my T, or an appropriate next move, I'd freak out about it. I have a huge abandonment issue, too, and I know from various T's of mine having brought up stropping, or taking a break, that I did. I think everyone lives in fear of hearing the "t" word when it isn't self-initiated.

I hope you make yourself heard about the uncertainty you have, and the fear that what you want will be ignored, over-ruled--as it were--by your T’s judgment. Another big, central issue for all of us treatment course. Keep bringing it up as it continues.