Last night was a really low point for me. For those of you who don't know what has been going on lately, I will explain.

I went to camp on the 20th. All the time leading up to it I was so anxious because last year was a terrible year for me there. I did not want to go at all. The only reason why I didn't..."un-sign up" is because there is a no refund policy and my mom would not tolerate that. So I went, and the whole week was so amazing. It was really hard though, because I couldn't SI while I was there. But at the end of the week I realized that I was getting better while I was there. So the last day I was really upset because I didn't want to go back to my house because I knew all the progress I've made would have just been destroyed. My house is not a safe environment for me. And I was right. I got home on Friday night and I've SI'd twice. I just want to go back to camp so I can get better again. I'm going back next week, and then 2 weeks after that. But I don't know what to do with myself now that I'm home. I don't know how to protect myself. I was talking to the director the last day before camp, and I told him I don't know how to bring camp home with me.

Thanks for letting me complain.