Dear Jazz,
You are not a bad person.
Your behavior hurt him.
You must figure out why you cheated on him.
I don't understand why you quit your therapist.
perhaps you can call and get in to see her/him?
History repeats itself unless you deal with the reasons why you behaved the way you did...IMO.
Perhaps your bipolar is out of whack....are you hypomanic?
That could help to explain it not excuse your behavior.
Think about this jazz.
You are young and have time to get it right.
We still have to accept that our actions, hypomanic or not...effect the ones that we care about.
Maybe you need to not be seeing anyone seriously....could you just date him?
bizi