Dear Mr. otad12, based on what you've observed about "humans" I guess I'm just wondering why you'd even want to be one of them...at times they're rude, hurtful, bigoted, judgmental, and lots of other ugly stuff...Groucho Marx said "I wouldn't want to belong to a club that would have me as a member." he was just kidding right? mental health has a lot to do with our perception's, Groucho Marx WAS the strangest creature on this planet and yet he made it work for him...you have the same choice! many people will tell you that you should find a way to numb your feelings, or that to continue to search for meaning and purpose is for "other people" don't believe it! somewhere there's a place that they desperately need a depressed, ocd man who has touretts etc... especially one who can inspire others by sharing his story of how he "made it work for him!"...what now? take an inventory of your strengths and be consumed with "growing" them, you'll soon begin to see how much happier you are, and perhaps even care to join "our club" under much different terms.