((((((((((DePressMe)))))))))))))),

My thoughts are with you.......I hope you have a good pdoc there in the hospital if not your own from the outside world. I always liked it best when I was in the hospital where my pdoc had priviledges. They have a much better undestanding of your situation that just some outside guy that comes in to "save the day".

I had the suidical thing going on for about 5 years....honestly don't know how I survived except that God didn't want me to quit living.....as my closeness to successful attempts were all too close several times........& even while I was in the hospital....landing in ICU in a coma on a breathing machine.

I don't know what or when it actually stopped.....I can't put my finger on a date or a. My problem was mostly situational to start with as I never had depression in my life until I lost my career......but it didn't make it any less a depression than that of a chemical imbalance from birth......just with time, I started looking at things differently......then I have to say, when my Christianity became something more than knowledge......that really helped me see life differently.

I pray that they are finding the right combination of meds.....sometimes they have to just get us through the crisis mode & then they can start working on the real issues & meds to work on the actual depression that is the everyday stuff.

I know that it seems like forever when we are locked up in a hospital....just as you say, night runs into day & day into night with nothing to distinguish the difference......this will pass & hopefully they will come up with something that will be a long term fix for your issues.

Thinking about you & keeping you in my prayers,
Debbie