Earthmama.... can you sit with this a bit? You can always change your mind. Like they've said in here - run used to be the safe thing - but now it may be time to hang up the shoes. T might call you back (i hope). ANd even if he doesn't, you can always call him back and change your mind. I hope you'll give it some thought. We can't change without going through the painful scary stuff. letting someone care sometimes falls into those categories.
(((((((((((em))))))))))) thinking about you!!!