Sorry, I don't know the icon for triggers and we may write stuff that triggers memories for someone.

i'm very worried. we are sposed to go on vacation with our family on Saturday and I'm TERRIFIED. I don't know why. I think it is just because of 6 people together in a van and two of them are my daughters husband/boyfriend peoples. My left knee is swelling and hurting and I can hardly walk and all we do will be about walking. I DONT WANT TO GO AND I CANT TELL THEM THAT. THEY WILL HATE ME.

I lied today to keep from going to the doctor and from going to a party given in my daughters honor. I dont lie very often and I feel very guilty.

want to cut, want to hurt want to bleed. dumb stupid *****, cant do nothing right. ever! so dumb and stupid, moron, idiot creep. i hate you and wish you would die and this would all be over. grrrrr...... bite you. hate you, hurt you to death.

I just can't keep it together right now. I cant even get myself to take a shower and I need one. I hate my life right now. Its so screwed up.

SORRY FOR SAYING ALL THAT IN FRONT OF YOU. I KEEP THINKING I'LL FEEL BETTER IF I SAY IT AND GET IT OUT. BUT I DONT FEEL BETTER. I FEEL LIKE A CREEP. A REJECT.

Leslie, Leah, Angry pixie, bad pixie