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Thanks all of you. Although I am feeling quite bad physically at the moment, my mind is relatively happy and I don't want to bring the issue up with him.

Call it burying my head in the sand, but that's what feels right in this instance for me to do. I have got comfort from telling you all about it, and reflecting on how it isn't that bad in the grand scheme of things.

I am fighting with not feeling bad about me posting on here about it because I am doing this in secret. I believe in being as open as you can with your partner and here I am sharing this in secret. !

I am working on seperating 'a good man who needs sexual release' from 'men who look at porn sites are sleazy'. I'll get there.

Some sleazy men do go on these sites, some men have an interest with cruelty and degradation in mind. But I know my partner is not like that. I guess he is like many others who use it if they are not able to get the sex they want IRL.

I feel all this is a knock-on effect of my depression, fatigue and medication. Before that I liked sex and things were fine.

I have the illness, but my partner is suffering and having to adapt to our changed life too. Hard for us both. We still love each other, thankfully !

Its so easy to think that everyone else out there is 'doing it' regularly, but I bet in reality more ppl are having probs than aren't, specially in longer term relationships. But, generally, it isn't talked about.

Well, thanks again for being interested.
Be happy, chicks and chickesses..............Poppet