Congratulations on making it through the course. That's quite a feat considering your fears and past experiences.

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I am also feeling really sad. In those few moment when I was able to clear my head, I realized a small fraction of what I've am missing in my private life.

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post">It might be healing if you can allow yourself to grieve this loss. Grieving the past--what could have been--can help us move on to better times ahead.