Well, tonight i had to numb. 6 cuts and a shot of rum. I have not had bleeding cuts since April 8th. pretty good run for me. And some how, this time, (at least right now) I don't feel shame around it. It happened. I tried to resist for as long as i could; i did it w/o any huge emotion or upset. and it is done. I know my stressors and perhaps I won't cut again for another 4 months. that at least is the goal. I don't even feel bad that I SIed with Benedict the Armadillo here. SO that feels like a little progress.
So it is....