Thanks for the comments. I was moving and haven't been on the forum in a while. It's interesting to be reading this just now. I was thinking a similar thing yesterday. I had called a friend of mine yesterday who lives far away because I really needed some support. I have called her several times in the last month or two without a returned phone call. I thought to myself, "Well f*&# her. She wants to end our friendship then fine!" I took it super personally. I then finally got a chance to talk to her and she says "I'm so happy to not be playing phone tag. I have the bar exam tomorrow and I have been super busy trying to get all this studying done." And then I realized this is what depression sometimes does to our thinking. We project how we feel on to other people ("I feel alone so people must be abandoning me.") even though there are a billion reasons that someone might not be able to call. Even though my friend might not have called because she wanted to abandon me ,there are a thousand other reasons she might not have been able to call. I think that is what depression does...it narrows your ability to see broadly. That's my thought for the day.