Also, a note on me. I have been hanging out with this guy a lot one on one and had developed a crush on him. I had sort of hoped we would start dating and yesterday we go out for hot water and we're talking about friends of ours who are dating (or were dating). And I tell him well *blank* doesn't like it when *blank* asks her about money. He feels really insecure about how much money her parents make. Anyway so we're talking about this and he's like "Well I mean if you and I were dating and you didn't tell me that I would be pissed" And in my head I was like "wait...is this in no way romantic?" And I felt like a jacka$$ for thinking this guy liked me as more than a friend. Although I don't know if I like him as more than a friend. Anyway I felt like a complete tool and all of a sudden found myself less interested in him all together. He kept talking and I found myself all of a sudden bored with all of his talks of travelling and being more secure than our friend *blank*--and just him. He's so drifty and unable to commit; and I get tired of hearing him talk about all of his travel plans. And he's like *blank* is so weird because he wants a girlfriend and I just feel like "IS THAT SO WRONG?!?" I just want a boyfriend! I wanted to slap him for saying this. Anyway, I just feel frustrated when I feel like I am developing an intimate relationship with a guy and they are like I totally just want to be friends. It's so frustrating! EEERRRRGGGHHH!!! I suppose I can appreciate the intimacy and keep making new friends...we'll see what life brings...
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