i do that too...
are you a people person, angel?
i'm more of a recluse so i kind of protect myself from that hurt this way.
but sometimes as a recluse you analyse feelings too much, because they are rare... and you indulge in the rare..
maybe if you get more "rare" and it becomes more of a routine, you can process these feelings in a more balanced way.

i don't know.. that's what came to my mind.. i'm not sure if it makes any sense to you.

(((angel)))