hi my name is Lily and everything is crazy.....big jen won't eat says we don't deserve to eat.....we try to eat for her and she purges .......very hungry for real food ...... she ate yesterday and gained so she is determined not to eat today ....we are having lots of bad memories and jen doesn't believe us she says we are lying that we are making it all up ..........noone believes us except for therapist.......so sad.......don't want to be here anymore.....want to hurt.....want to cry but can't .....can anyone help feel desperate.....