Hello everyone. I am not doing so good. I have cut everyday since I have been home from vacation. I saw my pdoc today and he asked if I needed to be in the hospital. I said no of course is my usual answer. I told him I was returning back to work after having a month off due to medical reasons, which was depression and everything that goes along with that. I am going back to work on Monday. I am very nervous about it because I have had at least 4 people ask me and tell me I need to be in the hospital. I am startig to think that myself, but I go back to work after being off for so long, and I don't want to lose my job. They are counting on me. I am worried that my boss will think that i should have gone to the hospital while I was on leave. Maybe that's the case, but things get worse everyday. My pdoc increased my respirdol to .5mg 3 times a day and I see him again Friday. He took me off Klonopin because it just wasn't working anyways, and I was having to take 4-6mg everyday. So I don't know what is going to happen now. Does anyone have any advice as to what I should do or if I should just go to the hospital or what. I have to go back to work because my finances suck, but what is the consequence of me not being ok. Am I going to totally lose it, or do you think I will be ok? Please help....I need someone to give me guidence. Thanks for listening