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I am not 'in love" with my T, lol. I am in love with my husband. I have loving feelings towards my T, as well as sexual transference, and tons of other feelings.

The way that you described my session is in your words, Happy-- not mine. You wrote, "He held your hands, looked into your eyes, and created a special email." You make it sound like a romance novel, lol.

Sorry I paraphrased all of that together, but to be perfectly honest, reading your posts about your T does seem like a harlequin romance novel. I don't believe you are doing anything wrong, but I do believe that your T needs to be extra careful with his touching you.

When you say this, He looks into my eyes because... um, pretty much any therapist witih half a brain makes eye contact.

I know eye contact is important but that is not exactly what I am talking about. I wish I knew how to search archives, because I could show your comments about discribing the way your T looked at you, it was more than just him looking at you . And the comment about a T with half a brain, isn't very respectful to T's everywhere. Do you truly not understand what I am talking about? There is a difference between eye contact and him looking into your eyes like discribe in your past posts. Then again, I don't blame you for what you feel, it is perfectly natural.

There are other ways to ground a client that doesn't involve direct physical contact with the T. In fact it is better that a client learns to ground themselves, because your T will not always be with you 24/7.

I am just wondering why he needed to create a special account just for you? Couldn't he just have you send your emails to his regular account like all his other clients? I am also a writer/poet, and I share with my T my posts on here, poems, etc. But I have a blog he can read anytime or I bring in things for him to read. But I don't require a direct contact with him to share my things.

I do believe in the healing of touch, but like you have expressed, you have to be careful of who and what the circumstances are. My T often pats me on the back as I am leaving, but I truly know he cares without him touching me at all.
I could be wrong, but has your erotic tranference weakened or become more stronger in the last few months? It could be with the result of your T 's actions or not.
If I had a client who I knew has erotic tranference, I would really hesitate to hold their hands for longer than a handshake, because those, like hugs can be confusing to the relationship.
Pink,
I am sorry if I am upsetting you, I really am trying to respect your feelings, I do care and worry about you. I don't want to see you become hurt like so many people I know. I truly hope you are right about your T, and I hope he keeps his boundaries with you. But as you know people are not perfect, especially T's, and things can happen. That is all I really want to say, be careful please.