apparently i have people to "talk" to irl also
but funny thing
whenever people say they'll talk to you, they're not around when you really need them
just so &^%*ing awful
it's killing me, i want to curl up
instead i just grab at my pillow and scream into it because it's hurting so bad
i deserve this i did this to myself
this is punishment
but i can't take it
it's too bad