((((((((Earthmama, Katie, Nowhere))))))))))

I am really scared to admit to my med team. I am afraid they'll lose faith in me. I see 2 of them on monday ... i dunno. I even slipped again with another SI as well as alcohol and i have so many things that are about to go in a good direction - I don't want to mess it up.

...And already, I am craving another. I even bought the Cola for a Rum and Coke (I'm allergic to cola as well as alcohol). It is rediculious to even be in this - and yet... I don't know why i am back in this spot again. I had quit cold turkey 10 years ago (meaing to me, not drinking every day) even tho i did socially but very rarely - like 3 times a year.
Thanks for being here -just the understanding is helpful.