thanks for the posts. i tend to "catastrophize" but in this case, if she kicks me out, wel ,, there i go, **IF** , she hasn't kicked me out. She wants to talk and i asked my only friedn if she'd come and she will. so i want to pick a neutral spot like at McDonald's.

I'm a bit calmer tonight. Exhausted after my first day back to work.

Please all out there I could use any
comments and opinions. I feel very alone right now. Gotta take my meds and go to bed. Good night.