I am back now. I had to lay low and cry alot. I appreciate all the responses and support. You guys are a ray of sunshine. I decided that i will no longer feel sorry for my mom. I will no longer talk to her or even look at her,.Its not like she ever calls me or remembers my birthday anyway. she has not called in on her own in over 14 years. She is very ill and an alcoholic. She was dx with schizophrenia at age 16 or so. She is in and out of jail for stealing. She has done so many mean things to me. Even as an adult. I feel stronger just sad.