It's difficult to manage. I so understand.

I was/am as you. I do well over the phone and on the computer, but in person things can get mixed up quickly.

I think it has to do with anxiety and commentary...fear of what others are viewing us as, and also commentary inside about the others we're around physically (including fear of looks, triggers about looks/actions, etc.). I think that's what it is for me, at least.

If I'm online or on the phone, those specific anxieties and fears are nil or at the least relieved.

Also, being online allows me the time to not get mixed and to know my words/actions in black and white. It takes alot of the unknown anxiety away as well.

I understand, and hope that it alleviates for you. I still have difficulty in the real time experiences for the reasons mentioned above, and basically not having confidence in my actions/reactions.

I think that co-con and healing has helped that immensely.

Good luck,

KD