Thanks everybody for your words of support. I called my T today and made an appointment with his secretary and then left a voice mail..."Dan, I would like to see you if it is ok that I pay a little at a time. I assumed that it would be ok so I made an appointment but if it isn't ok call me and let me know. I hope you don't call me." He didn't leave me a message on the machine so I guess that it is ok, it always has been in the past. I am rambling aren't I? I am super tired. My dad was over for a couple of days. Had a good conversation with him last night...if you set the whole not listening to my statement of needing help. He deals with a lot of the same issues that I do...disconnection with reality (am I dreaming or is this real), memory disturbances and such. It was fun laughing at each other. I didn't get majorly depressed today. In fact I was feeling really good when I got to work this afternoon. Could be because I downloaded on BP--thanks BP I needed to vent. Anyway I think I will shut up now and read what you all have written.
Take care and have a nice night,
Carrie

<font color=green>Not knowing when the dawn will come, I open every door.--Emily Dickenson