I am a dissappointment,

I am a failure.....I need to get stronger and find myself suffering inside. Never letting the people in my life know that the insides are bleeding.

Now I sit and suffer, put on a smiley face and stare at the boxcutter i have in my hand.

what to do........maybe just go for it today? Ive been a couple of months without si. i think four. then i think.

why not just make myself dissappear. what difference would it make. does anybody really care?

thanks......