Sometimes he doesn't remember the event at all. Other times he blows it off, like I'm over re-acting and being ridiculous. Every once in a while he’ll apologize (like when he threw the dinner I made out the door and broke my good casserole dish) I think when there is physical evidence of his actions he apologizes (proof lol) .

All of his injuries and personality flaws has caused a strain on our relationship so much so that he sleeps in the basement (It's a finished basement), and I sleep upstairs. Usually with the kids, I don't like to be alone. We basically co-exist in the same house. Sometimes I find myself avoiding his presence as much as possible.

Sometimes he can be okay, I never really know who I will be greeted with from day to day (I joke around to my family and say it's like living with Jeckle and Hyde). If he was psychologically analyzed I'd probably have a better idea of what we're dealing with.

I know I have posted on him before and I'm sorry that people have to listen to my repeat myself.

He has a boat load of problems.

He is physically torn up...

-Accident...Broken neck, broken T-spine (titanium rods in spine). Collar bone and clavicle were broken, so were ribs, a drainage pipe went through his helmet and into his head, his right arm is paralyzed (brachial plexus injury). He went into cardiac arrest 3 times. (This was all almost 8 years ago), most of the injuries are permanent.

-On top of this I believe he has PTSD from desert storm. His knee is trashed from being shot and he was also shot in the hip.

-I also believe he abuses his pain medication. Takes too much, not the right way.

I'm really sorry for repeating myself. My subjects are different but it always leads to the same responses (my responses not everyone elses)!

I love to hear everyone elses response, it makes me feel better; it makes me feel like I matter and that it's not all about him and what he went through. I know he's been through a lot and I feel terribly guilty for feeling sorry for myself. When I right about it I realize that I'm being selfish and I should except him for who he is and try harder to understand and help.

Thank you everyone for your response it makes a big difference in my coping with this!