(((((((((((Colleen))))))))))
You're listening to the lying voices.
I hope you resisted. I hope you continue to resist.
You have NEVER been a disappointment. You're a good role model here, a good friend and a good support for many. But you also need to be here for help for YOU too. You deserve that... we all d.
No disappearing either. That will intensify the pain, make the loneliness worse... and it's harder to escape urges when you're alone and suffering.

You are loved.