I am worried... sick.

I have too much to do.
Too little time.
I can't deal well with stress.
My brain feels like it's exploding.
My health is going down the tubes.
My personality and mood is not my own... it's chemically dependent because of the ADs.

Ever feel like your entire life is a farce?
I feel like that sometimes.
I'm trying very hard to make positive changes.
I keep running into brick walls.
Brick walls make me want to bang my head.
Banging my head leads to other SI.
So can't do that then...

Too many changes.
I never did cope well with change actually.

I feel like I'm drowning actually.
But what happens if what's happening is within your control and you choose to do nothing?
What happens if nothing is within your control to change?

I have control issues. No, clarifying... I just have ISSUES.

I feel like a basket case.

Stress does this to me. But it won't get better, it will get worse. But I brought it upon myself. I choose to volunteer. I choose to help others before myself.

Self-care needed, but not done.

I have one positive constant in my life... my rats. But they also cause me stress because I worry about anything and everything...

Attack of Christina's brain on the rest of her system!

Ack.

This is the typical university student experience, yes?

I want OFF. I want a BREAK.

Vacillating between hating my life and loving how it's getting better. Slowly, but it is... I think. I feel better. I can cope better... but still not enough.

I have a headache. I grit my teeth. I eat poorly. Don't get enough proper sleep. Drink too much caffeine. Eat too much sugar. Hygiene... I realized I haven't washed my hair in 2-3 days. Not a lot... but noticeable.

I have too many responsibilities. But if you're a doormat and accept everything people throw at you to do... you do it, right? Not pass it on to someone else?

I am officially my own worst enemy.

I'm also getting reallllllllllly good at complaining again. I wonder if I ever stopped.