Yes, change is very difficult, I struggle with that also. Good or bad, it's hard to handle.

But Christina, I see someone here who has made such progress in a relatively short time. You are more able to say how you feel now and it really is ok to do that.

I think it would be helpful for you to have a think on what would help to take some of the pressure off, just for now. Maybe, take an hour off or two from the voluteering to go and do something just for you. Make it something that is a real treat, like a reward so that you are not feeling like life is nothing but work.

Hugs ((((((((((((( Christina ))))))))))))))