fellowtraveler - thanks for your advice and for confirming that my T is not just trying to pawn me off on someone else. I trusted him and did what he suggested, but I also kind of felt he told me to go to my dr because he didn't want to deal with it.

itspeaks - good point - ED-NOS can be just as dangerous....I've read about that too.

Monty girl - you are so right, and I am trying to get help. I have spent so much time trying to figure out if I 'qualified' when all along that time would have been so much better spent trying to help myself. I'm pretty deep into it now....

My dr. appt:
My blood pressure is high: 140/90. I was really happy when I got on the scale and it said 104. I thought it would be higher at the dr office - it usually is. The doctor gave me a prescription for trazadone and a phone number for a psychiatrist. He wanted to send me to IP so that I could so the psychiatrist sooner but I told him I couldn't because of my kids and my husband is traveling for work.

On the checkout papers he wrote:
"Weight loss, Depression, PTSD"

Oh, and he also ordered lots of blood work and wants to see me again in 3 weeks.

I'm relieved it is over with and I'm glad I went. I've only seen my doctor a couple of times (for strep and a physical), but he was pretty nice and understanding. I still feel really hopeless about how I'm ever going to be able to get out of this. Part of me was wishing that he could wave a magic wand and it would be all better. And I guess it's the really sick part of me is glad that I have a little more time before I'm expected to change anything. Does that make any sense?

oh well, thanks to all for listening to me ramble.
peace,
ktgirl