> What do you do to handle your feelings?

Just TRY to watch them and examine them and see if I can understand more about where they come from. It is not easy at first but becomes somewhat easier with time. You learn to modulate them so they don't hit you full strength. The thing that does not work permanently is to suppress them or avoid them, although you can do that temporarily if you need to. Very difficult because I, at least, have avoided them for many years and avoiding became so automatic I didn't know it was happening. Now I am aware of it.