Thanks Silver Queen,

I didn't feel like I could tell my family I won't go. It would be like rejecting them.

BUT, I did realize that I have to take care of myself and NOT do stuff that might make the pain too much. My doctor told me to put my knee brace on right when I get up and it will help pain/swelling. It did help some today.

I'm uncomfortable sleeping in other places than my bed; my inside kid-pixies think its dangerous. My husband will keep it safe and I do have medicine I can take for anxiety.

I got to go to counseling today and it really helped me calm back
down and stop freaking out over all this.

Thanks again for input.