trigger for mention of SI

</font><blockquote><div id="quote"><font class="small">Quote:</font>
MissCharlotte said:
((Kiya))

</font><blockquote><div id="quote"><font class="small">Quote:</font>
I need to hang on to the me that copes ok when T is around?

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post">

Yeah, that sounds about right!

Ideas:

I think you should paint a picture of all that you described in your post: T, her office bldg., her car in the lot and you in the picture.

I think you should journal.

What else have you done in the past?

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post">

...panicked... cut.... binged... no good??
I have been working on an art project of pictures that incoroprate what I am going through while she is gone... but that's really not helping me connect to coping well. that's just keeping me in the "process"... of suffering, i think.

I like your idea of those things... and in fact, when t is back next week, maybe i can take digital pics of the clinic, her car, and make a poster with her business card and ... and this is feeling really stupid some how.
How lame am I that I can't find the me that knows the woman after 8 months?

i can't show her this poster i am working on - i'd feel too lame. and how's that gonna make her feel knowing that after this next week she'll be gone again...