Hi Squid,

This was a really HUGE loss for you. It won't be easy. I am so sorry for your loss.

My husband and I tried to help an older child by adopting her. Because of her severe emotional disturbance, we were unable to help her despite getting her the best treatment. When we no longer felt safe maintaining her in our home, we had to make the very difficult decision to disrupt the adoption.

It is not the same type of loss, but I feel a huge whole in my whole being, and it has been almost six years now.

Let me know if I can help in anyway.

EJ