I'm at work, in my office, trying to get myself together. Because my irresponsibility and impulsivity, my bank account became so badly overdrawn that I have got paid today, have only 194 dollars out of my check-- the rest went to overdraft fees. I have a check for 120 dollars that I gave T on Tuesday. Once that is processed, I wil have 74 dollars left for the next two weeks.

I left T a message (crying... which is very, very rare for me), canceling my Tuesday session. Then I told him I would probably be canceling next Saturday, too.

Then I told him that it is getting to be too much-- the gas money since he moved far away and the cost of the sessions. Plus once I start school that will be even worse because the only time I can se him is on Wednesday mornings, before school. My school and T's office are very far away from each other.

So I told him that maybe it would be better to just not do this anymore. At least not for a long while.