i hear you.. right now i am living on paper-thin ice due to the cost of T... i needed to cancel three appts in July and didn't. i need to be seeing him 1xweek and cannot bring myself to do it. i cry too.. and go without everything beyond basics, just to keep T.

i'm sending as much love and comfort as this medium allows, which is terribly inadequate. i'm so sorry baby doll... i really am. How many sessions would you truly need to miss in order to re-balance things? i know it is a big problem overall, but rebalancing, and getting rid of the overdraft problem would mean money would be yours again. If you took one month hiatus, what would the money picture look like then?

and pink... maybe there is a way to do this. Talk with him. Maybe you could do one month (1xweek) in which you don't pay anything... and then after that you could pay an extra $20 or something... until it catches back up.

you're a smart, fabulous lady with skills and a strong career path.. things will NOT stay this way.. not for long. Try not to forget all that... bc you'll get caught up in the very narrow picture. The despair won't last, nothing does. You don't know just what will happen yet.. or what can happen. It's easier to just see the "oh my god" of right now. Suppose you did take a month away... and yeah, i'd HATE that too.. but suppose you did, what is ONE month out of years of productive therapy? Or out of your life overall. Nothing. It's a blip. So.. even if you have to just see him once a month for a bit, or just talk to him on the phone for ten mins here and there, just to get through.. YOU CAN GET THROUGH and then you can continue on as before.

hang on dear heart..

much love