Thank you nightbird, for your kindness and understanding.

Yes, I have a great fear of being alone, but I can see that you are right in saying the therapeutic community are not going to suddenly drop me. Fear takes hold at times though, It seems in hindsight my T was more aware of how traumatized I was and has decided to help me out more.

I feel bad and guilty for jumping down T's throat now but T said, No Guilt!!!

I lost hope for a while but I'm now hoping this is a turning point.

Thank you again.