Hello to whomever happens to read this! I just feel like spilling my thoughts as I feel so DOWN and DEPRESSED! I really don't know what keeps me in this World anymore!

I feel so UNREAL, like I don't even exsist! I have a pdoc, but I don't feel I am getting any help from him as he only gives me 35 minutes of his time. I can't get into my real feelings and out of his office in 35 minutes!

I just don't know whats going to become of me and how much longer I can put up with these thoughts. Constantly thinking of death and what happens to us in the afterlife. I am like obcessed about it! I've had depression most of my life but its gotten worse in the last couple of years. Now even more worse!

Don't feel like I matter to ANYONE..even myself! A voice tells me I am just not worth it!

Well, just wanted to vent my feelings to the universe! Just because!

Seamoods