I have had 3 suicide attempts or near-attempts in just over a month. I landed myself back in the psych ward - where I am typing right now. I've been to the same place twice in a month. I hate this.

My life is really not all that bad. I have a loving husband, I love my daughter, and rationally I know I am needed and wanted and important. When I think rationally, I know that suicide is a stupid option that will only make things lightyears worse for my family.

So how do I stop the thoughts?!

I am Bipolar II, so they say I can't have any anti-depressant medications. But I have been so far down lately. What else is there.

I still have suicidal thoughts.

Why do I continue to have these thoughts, after two psych hospital stays, tons of therapy, all that?!!

Any ideas how to stop?

My daugther turns 3 on Sunday. I need to be here for her. She needs a mother. How do I remember that all the time?