(((((((((((((((( Wants2Fly )))))))))))))))))
Like KD, I too can feel your pain in your words. I am truly sorry that life has been difficult and feels like you are somewhat stuck. I also know that being depressed gives you all kinds of negative self talk and feedback. I hope that you can "see" beyond those negative things and find your shining light.....it is there.....you are not rejected everywhere....you have friends here who appreciate you for who you are.
Wishing you well and keeping you in my prayers.

sabby